Author: RogerMerriman

Had the first dose of the COVID19 vaccine today, as someone who is KeyWorker and all that.

It’s fairly grim now, which I had suspected being a cynical old git! See below!

Winter has arrived! But though I suspect that it’s not the end yet, it’s the beginning of the end to quote Churchill!

So it finally arrived, at work COVID-19 that is so with that so the beard has gone! As the higher protection and yes uncomfortable masks don’t play well with beards!

After a bit of persuasion got a Antibodies test for COVID19.

Which has come back positive, Sara and I had wondered since we both had something vile end of February which lasted and lasted, Sara even rang the GP who assured her that it wasn’t COVID19!

It was certainly unpleasant and I had no lungs for a long time, but since I am Moderate risk.

https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/coronavirus-covid-19/people-at-higher-risk/whos-at-higher-risk-from-coronavirus/

It’s good to see that it wasn’t worse, I’ve had colds close to that, as I don’t respond well to such things nowadays.

Does it change anything? Not a lot to be honest! I can’t assume that I’m immune or that it will last!

And with family who are High risk plus work clearly I’m going to need to continue being careful.

But it’s both interesting and pleasing ie it could of been much much worse!

8 years ago, I was kindly taken to the Olympic XC race by David Marsden, it was a fun if very hot day out from what I remember! Being meaning to revisit and see what they have done to it since!

It’s also a year or so before I ( or Aliens?) did this

So has clearly being its being in my head for a few years to revisit Hadleigh Park no I have no real idea why but it felt important to do so!

Took the Gravel bike, which was in places out of its depth, they don’t like rocks! But equally a lot of the track is gravel which isn’t really a Trail MTB’s specialty either, clearly a race XC MTB would be best funnily enough!

Did manage this though which was a hoot! Nobody to cheer though!

In short a fun day, not really sure why I needed to go but apparently I did!

Hadleigh it’s self I think potentially could be quite dangerous as vast majority is tame gravel stuff, with a few featured added, could easily lure the unwary! A lot of steep climbing which I like! Yes I know strange! Is it fun in of itself?

No not really but it’s a race circuit rather than bike park at heart!

Sara has been making scrubs, which has been organised by a local group, these where a duvet cover!

So today as there is a push to test Social Care Workers, I went to get tested.

It is rather otherworldly as folks are in PPE and Hi Vis you drive in, show them your printout so they can scan though the car window, and you are shown a phone number so you can ring and be instructed, how to use the kit that they pass to you.

At this point I had to ask for assistance since my ability to remember instructions due to my brain injury is gone, so I was sent to a different bay and someone come and talk me though step by step.

I was impressed how accessible it was, they didn’t appear thrown by the fact I couldn’t remember, and did feel very organised.

As is normal for me, it has totally wiped me out, as anything medical does, I’d expect to take a few days to recover from this.

6 years after doing that, and 2 years after having the battery of various assessments and rehabilitation, which was started by Headway south west London who got me back into the system as I wasn’t happy or coping well with the changes and loss of who I had been, ie version 1 and 2.

There is a Grieving Cycle idea essentially is grieving for who where and the loss there in of that. Today I was back at the Wolfson though not the same one, I still having two Wolfson units is confusing! To see a Neuropsychologist which originally had been the point of the assessments and then rehabilitation, but at this point both had given me closure, and in I am much happier in my skin now, and have reached acceptance, don’t get me wrong I do still find the fact that I run out of spoons and crash so end up with forced duvet days, or that I randomly don’t recognise or possibly remember people and so on.

So today was a good day, and it’s always ego boosting to be reminded how far and well I’ve done!

Rather a shock to the system, much more so for Sa, as Peeps (larger right cat) died late autumn, and Army (smaller left cat) has died today, had booked a vet but she died overnight she did like to do things her way!

She was born as a farm cat, and had a touch of the wild about her I always felt, where as Peeps her son was born here and was a big softy really!

One of my aims this year is to be more social able, it’s easy to let things slide quite apart from adult stuff of work and what not, due to my injury I have to be careful with fatigue so that I don’t crash cognitive or thinking of traveling to see folks literally.

And talking of that, last weekend I traveled down to stay with Chloë stopping to have a explore around Stonehenge and other henges which was cool, had a lovely social time with the Mann’s and next day en mass went to Ham Wall to see Starling murmurations, which was fantastic.

But at the car park, a unknown woman came up, who apparently knew me! I didn’t recognise her which isn’t uncommon, but it was Sabby and Woody who are friends I’ve lost contact with, I still didn’t recognise them though I do remember them. And lovely to chat even if briefly!

As the clock changes and the light draws in, the dark exasperates my fatigue levels since I have to work that much harder due to knocked vestibular both not falling or navigating though crowds. Which hasn’t made me love Christmas any more!

Though just to be well odd I do like night rides, though I do have big lights so seeing isn’t a problem! And oddly the bike seems not to stress my balance systems as much as walking, which while I know the reasons is still amuses me!